Wednesday, July 05, 2006

I am

FUCKING DYING.
oops - didn't mean the all caps.
too much caffeine.
too many thoughts.
banged my head really hard by accident and have felt off-balance ever since.
my heart races too fast - I can't catch up - it takes away my breath.
I have words that I cannot share.
...keep them inside - where they fester - and haunt me.
the loud music is coarsing though my veins like speed.
a small guilt is brewing inside and nagging at me.
[omitted]
[omitted]
[omitted]
it shouldn't be this way.
I'd like to bury my head.
pour the dirt over me now.
maybe i'll crawl back into the hallowed ground this weekend.
back from whence I came.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Ommited? Rough situation.. lol i feel left out.. Whats festering? just curious... and about the butterflys... yeah ive been having problems eating too... and butterlys galore.. wtf is the deal with that!? Time of the year?

lorena said...

as Jolie says - springtime can kill you!! although I guess it is technically summertime now...

lorena said...

oh - and there are BIRDS in my tummy - not any little soft winged butterflies!

Anonymous said...

I apologize! Butterflies are to small and weak for you? After today, id say ive been upgraded to birds.. hahaha

lorena said...

HA!!! but you don't like birds - so that must be hell for you!!!

Anonymous said...

Yeah, at least they are stuck in my belly! If they were loose, i'd be hiding somewhere in a corner.. hahaha

lorena said...

awwwwwwwww! I'd protect you from them!

Anonymous said...

Thank you.. I hates me some birds ... :( lol