I'm that...

...slanted fallen tree.

Not flattened out
along the earth entirely,
but may as well be.

it feels dizziness...

...my body does.
they sliced your precious white little belly
with a scalpel
to suck out all of the sickness
that seeped into you
but it wasn't enough.



R.I.P.
Gaetano "Ali" Z
3.15.99 - 02.23.07

All I want to do is take you in my arms,
wrap you in your warm blue fleece blanket once more...
and walk into the Atlantic ocean with you.
Walk along the ocean floor and take you back to our mother land...
bell' Italia.

Place you on the warm earth and give you one last kiss on your forehead.
You're home now baby.

Ti voglio bene per sempre il mio gattino bellissimo..il piu bellissimo nel mondo!!!

I'm paralyzed

I'm paralyzed
I'm paralyzed
I'm paralyzed
I'm paralyzed
I'm paralyzed
I'm paralyzed
I'm paralyzed
I'm paralyzed
I'm paralyzed

3 days after..

An all consuming loneliness prevails
this house feels of death in every corner.
His heavy sighs are bricks placed over my feet,
so that I am unable to move or walk away to safety.

I hate it.
I hate it.
I hate it.

.smash.

Ever feel utterly lonely and alone while in someone's presence? That's how I feel in this hell hole this day. I want to tear off my skin and toss it out onto the snow so as to cool off. I imagine the house and all of its belongings going up in flames. Don't even know if I'd care to walk out the door while it burns, perhaps I'd just walk quietly down the basement stairs, open the old wooden doors and start digging into the dirt floor.

And the one I need is too far out of reach and missing yet again...how does this all work? All seems broken this greyish damned day. Would love sto sleep until Friday folds over my still body.

one of these days

I will be pushed over the brink.
how much should one person take?
I see a little fox laid out on its side in the snow
in the forest where all is quiet.