I've been numb ever since I left SF...but I talked for many hours to one of my closest friends in SF this night and all of these memories are flooding over me and I'm asking myself how the hell did I leave that all behind? As if it meant nothing? It hurts in a magnitude I cannot fathom my body bearing right now. Yet I cannot cry still...I'm afraid. 12 years. So many memories, and lately through emails, phone calls, mail, myspace messages, you are all taunting me to come back...asking when?
I am nothing here...the days fall down as I said earlier...what does she do??? what to do? I miss them all so...why does the world have to be so big when it really just feels so small?
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